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My pictures got into Vegas Nerve.
They're having the reception today.
finger food.
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FUCK YOU.

Going back to Vegas in 5 days...

I dont feel ready to be academic again.

I think i have a lot of things to figure out.

Thank you COLIN for my beautiful b-day present! I love you so much baby!!!!!

I'm getting a little more stoked about coming home. but just a little.

theres soooo much to do here, its mind boggling.

I have a paper due tonight by midnight, a rough draft due tomarrow on a research paper i havent researched yet *eek!* no to mention packing and figuring out what I'm going to take back to MD with me, leaving here, throwing out, or giving away.

to sum it all up...

*STRESS!!*

Ok so life is confusing and people suck.

I dont want to leave vegas and come home, because by doing so things will change.

- Olivia is leaving and never coming back to vegas. Everytime i say this and really understand what it means i feel like i'm just going to burst out crying. She's my best friend here, shes practically my sister, and I'm losing her, just like that. She'll go back to Orange County and I'll be stuckin the HoCo and Vegas without her. It kills me. Plus I have to say good bye to her like 2 and a half days early because she is going to the Mountain West Conference meet on thursday and wont get back until right after my plane takes off. I really cant deal with not having her around.

- Coming home is just a strange and alien exeperience. It's like coming back to a place that doesnt exsist. Columbia will never be the same as it was when i was in high school, to me, it's not the town i grew up in, too much has changed. To y'all it's probably the same old po-dunk columbia, but i guess I've changed too much for columbia to remain the same to me, does that make any type of sense?

- I have to come home to family drama, because let's face it, why would i move 3000 miles away from everything and everyone i know? Oh, ya, it's because of them. I cant escape all of their shit by being here, but it helps me get away from most of it. When I'll be home, it's going to be like being a sophomore in high school all over again. The constant fighting, and arguing over their time with me. I plan on not being around them too much, again, like i did when i lived there.

But dont get me wrong, i want to leave vegas like no one's business.

- I'm tired of my roommate and all of her friends waking me up at odd hours of the morning. I'm tired of them always getting high, I'm tired of my suitemates being loud when i want to sleep, i'm tired of my floormates running up and down the halls screaming, i'm tried of drunkeness (not on my part). I'm just tired

- I'm slightly... no... more than slightly Vegas-ed out. No more tourists, yellow light runners, crazy people walking the streets, slow stupid west coast mentality. All of it.

- and I'm SUPER tired of my so-called friends. I have plent yof real friends like Kelly, Olivia, and Cheyenne, but the fake ones kill me. I dont know why i try. Seriously, i dont know why. That goes for all of the democrats except like a handful... why do i try to be your friend when deep down i know that you'll never let me into your stupid little high school clique. Fuck them, fuck them all.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm torn.

Last but not least, I want to come home, because i miss you all!!!

she could see from my face, that I was,
fucking high...

Dude I havent been on LJ in forever long!

Today is the Day of Silence, and i've done well so far, except for when i said "bye" to Jason (only cuz he was pestering me)

Today is also Yom Hashoah or Holocaust rememberence day. At the hillel we're writing as many names as we can on post it nots and covering the walls with them. There are only 3 million known names, and it takes 4 months to say all of their names, so we probably definately wont get to 3 million, but we'll put up a lot.

I saw my uncle Bob (the one who's truck got broken into) on Saturday for his grandson's second birthday party. on the way there we were talking politics. I said my biggest issue was gay rights, he said "dont start me on that especially after what your friend Ryan did to me!"
i was shocked
"Ryan isnt gay people he's one person!"

it just made me so mad!!

I told my dad about it, he told me i shouldn't "idolize" gay people... WHAT?! First of all, i dont. I love them but its not like they are G-d, and second, theres no reason not to treat everyone fairly. Discriminating against a group of people because of what one member of that group did is extremely prejudice and wrong!

I told my mom, she said "thats the problem with being a member of a minority group; people are always looking for a reason to hate you." That is the most true thing i've heard all day.

Fuckin A...

Hey all,

I dont use my LJ too often, but i just wanted to thank everyone from HoCo who has been helping me out with my sitch. I really really appriciate it, more than i could ever say. I wish i could afford to fly home, but it's just not in the cards. I wish i could be home, i wish i hadnt have ever started it, i wish i didnt bring everyone into it. But again I LOVE YOU ALL more than i can say and more than you will ever know.

That's really all that can be said...

I havent updated in forever, mostly because im a raging Myspace-aholic.
So heres the update:
I'm Home
I'm Sick
Hanukkah is in two days
I'm working at the Ravens game on Sunday
It's Friday
I LOVE Colin and Becca and Walking Talking Marshmellow peeps
Its officially winter and its warm out
I'm out of things to say.

HAPPY Xmas
Merry Hanukkah
and A Joyous Kwannzah
to all my homies!

I GOT HUGGED BY JARED LETO LAST NIGHT!!!! *melts*

So hotttt.

i'm home sick with a kidney infection :-(

Everything's been pretty great up til my kidneys started attacking me.

Oh well heres something stolen from my faithy poo which was stolen by a series of other ppl...

*10 FAVORITES*
1) Favorite Colors: turquoise and pink
2) Favorite Food: buffalo wings
3) Favorite Band right now: My Chemical Romance
4) Favorite Song right now: "Big Balls" by AC/DC.
5) Favorite Movie: Dot the I
6) Favorite Sport: Track and Field for obvious reasons.
7) Favorite Season: Spring, minus the pollen.
8) Favorite Day Of the Week: Friday
9) Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Phish Phood.
10) Favorite Time of Day: When i'm asleep.

~9 CURRENTS~
1) Current Mood: pain, physical, not mental
2) Current Taste: my mouth.
3) Current Clothes: My I heart Harry Potter Tee, jeans and car seat belt belt.
4) Current Desktop: My laptop?
5) Current Music: "the ghost of you"-- My chemical romance
6) Current Time: 1:22 pm
7) Current Surroundings: My dorm room
8) Current Thoughts: It would be nice if my kidneys would stop hurting
9) Current Status: Single, i dont have time for boys.

*8 FIRSTS*
1) First Best Friend: Stephanie
2) First Kiss: Charlie Orm in Kindergarten
3) First Screen Name: Jaina419.
4) First Pet: Rinso the cat
5) First Piercing: Ears in 7th grade
6) First Crush: I cant even remember.
7) First Music: Disney sing alongs and Madonna
8) First Love: not there yet

~7 LASTS~
1) Last Cigarette: i dont smoke... cigarettes
2) Last Drink: Jamba Juice.
3) Last Car Ride: last night to the halloween store when we saw the weiner mobile!!
4) Last Kiss: dont remember.
5) Last Movie Seen: Everything is Illuminated when i was home with my mommy.
6) Last Phone Call: My unkle to tell him im still alive.
7) Last CD Played: Prolly Green Day American Idiot

*6 HAVE YOU EVERS*
1) Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Guy/Girl Friends: no.
2) Have You Ever Broken the Law: yes when i robbed that bank and went on that murder spree like a week ago...
3) Have You Ever Been Arrested: No
4) Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: yes with Choley.
5) Have You Ever Been on TV: in like 5ty grade when some raven came to our school
6) Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: no.

~5 THINGS~
1) 1 Thing You're Wearing: black nail polish.
2) 1 Thing You've Done Today: study hall, but i had to leace early cuz of pain.
3) 1 Thing Your Listening To Right Now: "Cemetary Drive"- MCR
4) 1 Thing You Can't Live Without: my i pod.
5) 1 Thing You Do When You're Bored: update my livejournal.

*4 PLACES YOU'VE BEEN TODAY*
1. My room
2. Jamba Juice
3. Study Hall
4. Hillel

~3 PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO~
1. Cynthia
2. Oli
3. Choley

*2 CHOICES*
1. black or white: Black
2. hot or cold: hot

~1 THING YOU WANT TO DO~
1. Stop the Madness

i can't fucking wait until Brokeback Mountain to come out!

I'm leaving in two days!!! AHHHHHH!! I'll miss EVERYONE!! well not everyone, but everyone i love. If i dont love you you're not worth it :-P
I'm not even close to being ready, i havent even started packing, i guess i just dont really want to leave everyone... but y'all should come out and visit!!
I'll be back for thanxgiving for a hot second and winter break for a month (give or take).

I love you guys! Dont forget the pix from RYA Crystal and Faith... It will make me happy :-)

I have to stop now, I'm getting a lil faclempt!

email me!!

Love Always,

AMY

thanks Jess for the stuff from Germany!

Good luck in College!

Stolen from May!

LAYER ONE:
-- Name: Amy.
-- Birth date: April 19, 1987.
-- Birthplace: Columbia, MD.
-- Current Location: Columbia, MD...but only for 2 more weeks, then i will be in fabulous Las Vegas, NV!!
-- Eye Color: Dark Brown.
-- Hair Color: Dark brown.
-- Height: 5' 6"
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty.
-- Zodiac Sign: Aries

LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: AMerican Indian (Blackfeet!) and German- Jewish
-- The shoes you wore today: My Roos
-- Your fears: Fire, spiders, failure, being alone, crabs, thunderstorms...
-- Your perfect pizza: NY with good cheese.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: DO well in College.

LAYER THREE:
-- Your most overused phrase on AOL/MSN/YAHOO IM's: lol
-- First thoughts when waking up: Oh shit!
-- Your best physical feature: Eyes.
-- Your bedtime: When i fall asleep.
-- Your most cherished memory: Winning my Cappie.

LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: In-n-Out Burger.
-- Single or group dates: single.
-- Adidas or Nike: Nike, It's Lance's label!
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: 4C's.
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla.
-- Cappuccino or coffee: either.

LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke: not cigarettes.
-- Cuss: all the fucking time.
-- Sing: yes i love it!!
-- Take a shower everyday: I take baths.
-- Have a crush(es): define "crush".
-- Do you think you've been in love: nope.
-- Went to go to college (or want to): Yes, i;m goin!
-- Like(d) high school: Loved it, glad it's over.
-- Want to get married: yes.
-- Believe in yourself: Sometimes.
-- Get motion sickness: no.
-- Think you're attractive: No.
-- Think you're a health freak: no.
-- Get along with your parent(s): not really.
-- Like thunderstorms: They scare the SHIT outta me.
-- Play an instrument: no

LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: no.
-- Smoked: no.
-- Done a drug: no.
-- Made Out: no.
-- Gone on a date: No.
-- Gone to a club: Nope.
-- Drank a martini: Noppers.
-- Eaten sushi: Yes.
-- Been on stage: no.
-- Been dumped: No.
-- Gone skating: no...
-- Made homemade cookies: No.
-- Gone skinny dipping/chunky dunking: yes.
-- Dyed your hair: Nope.
-- Stolen anything: prolly something from Hot Topic.

LAYER SEVEN:
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: no.
-- If so, was it mixed company: no
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes.
-- Been caught "doing something": no.
-- Been called a tease: idk.
-- Gotten beaten up: yes.
-- Shoplifted: yes
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no.

LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: 30.
-- Numbers and Names of Children: Ariana Michele and Ira David.
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: Cherry Blossom festaval, in DC...
-- How do you want to die: Painlessly.
-- What did you want to be when you grow up?: Lawyer/ human rights activist.
-- What do you actually do?: Unemployed aside from the babysittign i get in
-- What country would most like to visit?: German or New Zealand.

LAYER NINE:
In a guy/girl...
-- Best eye color? green.
-- Best hair color? Black.
-- Short or long hair: long if theyre indian, short if theyre otherwise.
-- Height: taller or as tall as me.
-- Ideal body type: athletic.
-- Best articles of clothing: skin
-- Best first date location: movies?
-- Best first kiss location: Not sure.

LAYER TEN:
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 1, several times
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 1
-- Number of CDs that I own: i i-pod now, cd's are sooooo 90's.
-- Number of piercings: 4.
-- Number of tattoos: i want one but im waiting til i get to Vegas to get it.
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: at least 10 times, im a loser, im including "THe Scroll".
-- Number of scars on my body: a lot!
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: A whole hell of a lot, but things were supposed to work that way afterall